leaking hearts, broken petals, oceans retreat
Seaweed of guilt wrapped around my soul. Would they embrace me in the warmth of love again? How did I get here? O’ the weight of sins load weighing me down. I’m sinking into unfamiliar realms of emotions, helplessly. I feel worthless. I want my joy back. I want my sanity back. [ode of a broken soul]
The inability to free oneself from the discomfort of the souls garden from the grip of hurts, shame, and guilt in dire situations of a moral failure, and seasons of disappointments: a kind of cancer destroying the lives of so many wonderful and loving people in this life. Life is full of ups and downs. We are like birds chirping and dancing on tree branches: suddenly our feet are caught in a snare, unexpectedly everything around you is badly impacted. The good news is that our Savior and our Lord Jesus Christ always leads us into triumph as we tap into his wisdom through faith. It takes a little bit of ignorance of the ways of God to destroy your life. Let’s download some crucial wisdom from the actions of Judas, the traitor.
Matthew 27:3-5 GNTD ”When Judas, the traitor, learned that Jesus had been condemned, he repented and took back the thirty silver coins to the chief priests and the elders. “I have sinned by betraying an innocent man to death!” he said. “What do we care about that?” they answered. “That is your business!” Judas threw the coins down in the Temple and left; then he went off and hanged himself.”
Judas sinned. He sinned by betraying his master to the chief priest and the elders. In the end, Jesus was condemned to death. Brother Judas could not hold himself together. He has disappointed God, the disciples and his own soul. But he also understood God’s system of forgiveness — He knew God does not deal with us according to our sins but on the basis of his forgiveness. Deep inside his heart he knew he will find forgiveness in God if he repent of his wrong doing.
He repented. He had a forceful mental turn around, that what he did was wrong. He felt sorry before God. His heart was broken, therefore he returned the price money to the chief priest and the elders; ”I have sinned by betraying an innocent man to death, he said” Judas was on the right direction towards restoration. Unfortunately, the response from the chief priest and the elders messed his emotions. They refused to take the money back; shooting his soul with more pain.
That’s your business, Judas! I have sinned, please take your money so I could be free from this guilt” That was his whole intention — to be free from the guilt of sin. It did not go as he has wished. They have this to say; ”What do we care about that?” they answered. “That is your business!” Judas threw the coins down in the Temple and left; then he went off and hanged himself.”
He took the whole weight or pressure of Jesus death on his fragile shoulders, and there was no way he could handle that. Not even the toughest person can handle that. You have betrayed the son of God to death. All the disciples has been scattered. Jerusalem has turned upside down, and every tear from Jesus mom and all who love him is connected to his action. He couldn’t forgive himself. He couldn’t shut that voice of accusations drumming inside his head. He couldn’t endure the war from within, because he was holding so much in his head. We all do that sometimes. We beat ourselves till we lose the drive to socialize with others. We feel unwanted and unworthy. That has been one of the secret weapon of the enemy to stop countless believers from destiny. Take a grip on Gods hands. You can free yourself. Don’t die yet!
Judas hanged himself. Why, Judas! You felt sorry for your mistake. You admitted it openly. So why did you go to the extreme? Did you find it extremely difficult to forgive yourself? I know there are a lot of people reading this today who may not literally hang yourself on a tree, for failing. Sadly, most of us are not enjoying the quality life which is in Christ Jesus, because we have not learned to forgive ourselves. We’ve been beating ourselves every day for hidden mistakes God doesn’t even remember. Things we have repented from. You can’t go back to correct your mistake — the best way to correct it is to dream forward; forgiving yourself and improving daily in life.
It is time we grow in this vital area of forgiveness. It is important to forgive the sins of others, but it is also necessary to forgive yourself when you have to do so. Faith works in love. To hold inside you what God has forgiven you through grace will numb your spirit from having the confident trust in God, and the courage to walk in love towards yourself as a child of the king. Free yourself today. Let go of the past. God is not holding anything against you my friend.
Let me leave you with this beautiful scripture to ponder on today, and to also thank you for taking the time to read, comment, like and share. I’m praying for you. Psalm 103:12 ”As far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
The best gift she ever gave to herself / Looking at her face in a mirror with a smile / The Tombstone of victimization removed / A child is born from within / New day dawned on me / Birds of yonder places sing in unison; / O’ the return of maidens misplaced / The joys of heaven and his God / The thrill of the universe, and all who love her freedom.
i want to travel to
i want to win
i want to cry
the glow of a million
stars of the Ancient
i want to be buried
beside you; our souls
lounging in the corridors
of those who still speak,
though they are gone.
If you love what you can not see then you have faith in your eyes. But if you despise what you can see with that same eye then you are blind, and your faith is not ”faith” but the carnal religion of men.
I entreat you to buy eye salve from God, Son, Spirit. Walk with him— He’ll apply it on your eyes, illuminating your darkness. Do you not know we have passed on from seeing with our naked eye? This eye can be deceptive. Oh, how it loves to see everything in all men flowing in the same direction and stream of our own myopic opinion, rather than the truth of love. Our opinion are twisted sometimes.
That brother with plenty of faults: He is still a brother, a child, a son of the father of lights, though he wear rugs on his skin. The rug of sin. If you say you love a God you cannot see but hate your brother then you do not have love. Hard truth right? I pulled it from the scripture my friend. Love covers over multitudes of sin. Love came down and made a residence in the heart of men. Those who believed.
Not perfect men. But ordinary men who believes in Elohim and his finished work through the son of his delight on Calvary hills.That man has been translated from darkness into his life. He is not perfect. And he will never gonna be one tomorrow. He lives by the perfection of a just man who lives within him.
His imperfections does not disqualify him from grace and mercy. That combo that saved him can make him stand when he falls. Wether he stands or falls he is wrapped in the perfect garment of love and compassion. He is the image of God. He’s born of the spirit. He is an epitome of God. Not completely God in the flesh. His flesh is nothing. It is his spirit. The spirit of the creator in him has metamorphosed him — from a servant to a king. To hate him is to hate yourself. To despise him is to despise the one who also resides in you.
Henceforth, know no man according to the flesh. Not even yourself. Sin is not a byproduct of the nature of God. It is a a consequence of the unrenewed places of the mind. Be transformed. By the word of his spirit. Don’t be conformed to the matrix of the world. The culture scape.They make you carnal. Though you’ve become new creation but you still bear the fruit of sinfulness, because of your unwillingness to surrender to love, to God. God is love. Love is ability. Love is power in motion. He has no fear of the tremors of the economy or the plagues that flies by noonday. He knows that the lover cares, even to the very details of his life, to protect and heal. That’s why he can confidently say; love did not give me a spirit of fear, but of his love and soundness of mind.” In complex times I do not cave in into fear but rise up like Phoenix, from the ashes.
Who has fears? The one who has not delve deeply into the boundless oceans of his love. It is deeper than we can imagine. So we need the eye salve from love presence to able to see the depths, breadth, length and the widths of the great expanse called agape. Without love our hands will kill God. We will choke everything God with our own hands until he bleeds to death, without representation.
— AG. McDaniels
Love like soft rains caressing
the edges of fragile temples
When you are near.
Colors of the universe blooms
brighter than Eden,
When you are near.
In the stillness of heartbeats, in awe of you
Drinking from your cup
Of the lovers love presence
We have become satisfied mirrors.
a perfect mirror of goodness; Reflecting
unparalleled beauties of
O’ infinite friend of the friendless wayfarers
Please, come home. Come home!
Come home to our homeless hearts and souls,
Of February longing hearts, Of shattered dreams and turmoil
O’ come, my gardener
Your flower child awaits you. In longings of February.
“Take me with you, and we’ll run away; be my king and take me to your room. We will be happy together, drink deep, and lose ourselves in love. No wonder all women love you!” (Song of Songs 1:4 GNTD)
lacked ye any thing? any of the common blessings of life, food to eat, or raiment to wear?
“Then Jesus asked his disciples, “When I sent you out that time without purse, bag, or shoes, did you lack anything?” “Not a thing,” they answered.” Luke 22:35 GNTD
This morning, as a custom of few of the brethren and myself, we pray for the local church and the body of Christ everyday, from 7:30-8:00 am. During our intense prayer for Gods provision, i deeply sensed the presence of Christ; whispering these same words of scripture within my heart. Gripped with awe I picked my Bible after time of prayer and began to let the above scripture sink in deep within the places of my being.
Suddenly, I heard myself whispering these words; ”God, you have a budget plan for those you’ve commissioned, and they will lack nothing by your providence.”
GREAT PROVIDER: Our father is a provider. He meets the needs of his people. He has blessed us with every spiritual blessings in the heavenly places. These blessings are to be manifested in the physical realm through an act of faith on the part of the believer. There are times in our lives, especially when all looks cosy we sometimes have this sense of ownership of our existence.
We feel we are of ourselves in charge of our lives assignment. When that sets in you know pride has taken over. And pride always leads to a fall. God is our sufficiency. If you don’t see it like that and you depend on self ability or efforts, in times of deep crisis of lack you will completely shut down and burn out on every scale. The system of Gods provision is to help us walk with him through rest. Resting in his providence. We are not to grapple with worries and unnecessary concerns.
WE LACKED NOTHING: I don’t know what your needs are today. Friend, you and I can draw strength and find encouragement from the powerful response of the disciples of our Lord Jesus Christ when he put these questions before them. These words are an encouragement to me today, that God, where he assigned he also provides. No one’s goes to war and set a budget for himself. You are under the huge budget of the federal funds. So you don’t have to worry about all the basic needs as a soldier, in order to focus on your assignment. That’s exactly how our God works. He takes care of his business. Everything about us that fits into his purpose is his business. You are just a channel. He’s the source. The source of what it takes to fulfil his will on this side of eternity.
Jesus asked his own disciples: when I sent you to propagate the gospel, did you guys lacked anything? And they said, ”not a thing.” I know you truly understand the profound response; ”NOT A THING”. It means they lacked nothing at all; wherever they came, they had a friendly support system for accommodations; they were provided with every thing necessary for them; they had both food and raiment, and good lodgings in every place; the houses and hearts of men were opened by Christ to receive them, though they were sent out by him so empty and destitute.
God in his own right has set all the needed financial spiritual systems to fund his own work. That’s powerful! What do I mean by that; ”God in his own right has set all the needed financial spiritual systems to fund his own work.” When the disciples were sent, these guys had no idea where they will lodge and so forth. They just obeyed their master out of faith and set out for the assignment. True to their amazement everything they needed was met, for a fruitful outcome. They did believe in the one who had sent them.
”Outstanding results always correspond to a simple decision of obedience and faith in God”
SUPERNATURAL INTELLIGENCE: Sometimes we got everything twisted because of our lack of knowledge or intelligence of the methodologies of God. You can’t just use your head and numbers to figure everything out. No, it doesn’t work like that!! Everywhere God commands his word (his assignment) he goes before his word to influence physical happenings for an uncommon breakthrough for his people. That’s why it is important we pray daily to seek the light of God for illumination.
We need to understand how God works. We also need to understand from the Holy Spirit, the satanic manoeuvring in the realm of the spirit hindering our lives, and engage war against them. Until we grasp the mind of God we may go through endless lack and life limitations and accept is as a natural flow. No, that’s not how our father operates. He’s our shepherd and he wants us not to lack all things. (I know there are trying times ) Over here my emphasis is on endless lack. What should I do? We need to invoke the promises of God concerning the very situation we going through, through intense prayers of faith and humility of heart to influence the realm of Gods provision in order to provoke physical agents of men who may directly or indirectly line up with the vision of God upon our lives by the will of the Father. In the dire need of my family and the church, I had seen the heart of men moved by God to push his agenda forward. Sometimes you even wonder where this person got the idea to support you [financially, emotionally, materially, etc] beyond measure.
“So we went on rebuilding the wall, and soon it was half its full height, because the people were eager to work.” Nehemiah 4:6 GNTD
Friend, it is God! He is the one that moves the heart of people. It doesn’t matter — God can use anything, anyone. Yours is to pray and expect him to move on your behalf. Hallelujah!!
CASTING OUT. TAKE DOMINION: Satan also works to manipulate or avert Gods supernatural agents of change from having an encounter with you. He works that through many ways. He set up territorial forces and powers in the area of your assignment to control the actions of men against you. This happens a lot in the areas of those in ministry or directly engaging business within your community or city. You need to wrestle those powers in the power of God. Have you ever had a good idea to help someone then suddenly someone came with a bad report then you lost the drive to do so?
“I saw that the people were worried, so I said to them and to their leaders and officials, “Don’t be afraid of our enemies. Remember how great and terrifying the Lord is, and fight for your relatives, your children, your wives, and your homes.” Our enemies heard that we had found out what they were plotting, and they realized that God had defeated their plans. Then all of us went back to rebuilding the wall.” Nehemiah 4:14-15 GNTD
That is how the devil works — he came to steal, to kill and to destroy all good things that come our way so that life becomes unbearable. Today, by the power of the Spirit of Christ, God is influencing the universe and the people within it for your good. Anything that tries to withstand your progress and breakthrough shall not prosper. Have an expectation of goodness, because the good shepherd has surrounded you with all of his goodness.
Say to your soul; ”Nothing at all is missing, Oh my soul. You lack nothing. In Jesus name, all needs of mine are met according to Gods word.” There is a release of financial helpers and human resources. People with loyal heart, so dedicated to your Ascension. Amen!
Unbolt the madness
that slithers on souls field.
Flowers fade, lush green
Who will call me tenderly
Tuesday when my head is
a wasteland, a desert of
intense hallucination and
Let liquid light rain down on us.
May the eyes of all
drifters catch a glimpse of a better
tomorrow; unbolted from fuzzy
promises and fibs
“Then God commanded,
”Let there be light”
—and light appeared.”
Genesis 1:3 GNTD
Welcome, O’ luminous
Kind-comrade of curious
pilgrims and wayfarers.
Those who encountered you
have straddle themselves in
the corridors of your twinkle.
They will fill up their
baskets with enduring truths
O’ truths, that set them apart
from the masses in blind bath.
[ Illuminate the darkness ]
Feb 11/ 2020
she’ll kiss her own forehead
with a smile,
Purging her soul from
the deep scars of yesterday.
Armed with self love, and brute conviction towards her craft, She was no match for any army. Not even those that shot her down yesterday. Those who numbed her spirit in cold dark prisons.
“A roman legion can’t stop me. The poisonous tongue can’t derail me from my ascension, even if you bite deeply into my skin.” I have seen wild flowers grow ferociously through slippery walls into Kings palaces, but you’re a different breed of a wild flower; coiling yourself around untested territories, & edge of mountains.
I have seen tamed souls taming wild souls. In a blink of an eye she became like everyone else. When they can’t contain your little growth they make you feel bad about yourself. O’ flower child, your presence intimidates souls devoid of growth. There’s nothing wrong with you to feel “different”
-— Ag. McDanielsSelf love, your priceless gift.